i always keep let ma mind to wonder in in a bondless and borderless state were there is no rightand wrong,vices and virtuals no norms but still stay in the reality of the world and the tangible things we see and believe.somewhere where i can ask the questions that am sure some of us have asked themselves in there silent thotss and ignore to venture in the answers because of the society and religious fear instilled in us ever since we were born.

i remember ever since i was young ma mom used to make me go to church before i even knew wot was going on,all i used to go and do was sit there and day dream,go under the church benches and try to sneak a peak into ladies dresses,and this was instilled to us .every sunday was a must go church.even when i became of age i was still forced to go there.then one day i overheard the preacher say something like u may come to church and leave with a curse insted of a blessing.depending on your thought and reason for attending.and that is when i walked out of the church and its been awhile more like 5 years since i went back.but i pray by ma self.

let me tell you what exaxtly am getting @ every sunday i would go to church and immediately after we left the mass.80% of the pple i knew we headed to a nyama choma place order nyama go to the bar and drink.talk all ill shit.and by the time it night time i think guys broke all the 10 commandments.axcept the kill part.the same people who were in the church humbly singing,there hands tacked behind,they looked like saints.And this was a weekly ritual.every other sunday.Worse still our so called priest was very good friend of ma parents was a playa and used to drink to.the guy once invited me and ma pals and some chiqs took us to naivasha we partied like there is no tomorrow,and he to did break the 10 commandment tablet and left only the the don’t kill part.SO WITH THIS HYPOCRISY IN OUR SO CALLED RELIGION.i don’t see how,this is the guy who is supposed to mediate between me and my creator.Armed with this knowledge u can understand why i got little to know faith in religion,.Now u can see where am going.

Am always thinking about heaven and hell.and the way its portrayed E.g

Heaven:if you do good in this earth wateva good is ?because good is relative depending on how you where raised.So if we go by this that means .the people who are in heaven are people like .mather teresa,the pope akina cardinals and priests.and some straight upright moral people according to society .and i always hear that when we go to heaven we will spend iternity singing praise song.no sleeping and eating just rejoicing .... if you ask me if that is the life i want to lead foever.. Hell no.it seems boring and with all due respect the people who are said to be there .the pope and the rest seem boring to...

HELL:if you enjoy the pleasures of earth your destined to doom.

So am guesing that by using the above all the intresting people will be hanging out in hell.THe likes of ,tupac.biggy,Elvis,my boy bannie Mac.just sipping some gin with marylne monroe, and princes diana .. of the two this seem like the perfect place to be..

i just dont understand how iif i lie i go to hell,And if a guy kills 100 people and confesses the last minute goes to heaven thats what am saying the religion as it is has to much un answered Questions.and if you dare question your told its blasfemy.

Its to vague for me to follow blindly.to much things answered !!!!

DONT JUGHE ME NOW